Insanity: Postponed :(

It’s been a busy week!

Last Thursday, on my first day of my second week of Month 2 of Insanity, I pulled the outer side of my right calf muscle. I decided to take a break from Insanity for 2 days on Friday and Saturday. During those 2 days, I iced my leg, elevated it, and took it easy. I resumed Insanity on Sunday, but I think it might have been a little too soon. My leg was okay on Sunday and Monday, but after last night’s workout, it started hurting again. I’ve decided to take a full week off in order to recuperate,  and hopefully resume Insanity next Thursday. The last thing I want to do is cause some serious damage to my leg. I might try and go to the gym at some point to do some light lifting and activity, as long as I don’t think it will further agitate my leg.

I’ve still been stuck at a consistent 157lbs. I think some of it may be water weight from my period, which usually has me up in weight anywhere from 2-5lbs. So hopefully by the start of next week, the numbers will start going down again. I’m making sure to be extra conscious of my diet. As much as I’m trying to be patient with myself, as of today, there are only 39 days left of the health and fitness contest I’m enrolled in. I would like to make as much progress as I can in that time. I think that if I’m really good for the next 39 days, it’s still possible for me to reach my goal weight of 149lbs by March 31st.

My friends Lisa and Peter came to hang out in Brooklyn on Saturday night. I had so much fun with them. I really miss having an active social life and close friends. On Sunday, Lisa and I went to the tattoo shop that her uncle manages in Park Slope. We decided to get our belly buttons pierced.  Here’s what that looks like!

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I figure it will be good motivation to work towards toned abs!

I decided to request a day off from the coffee shop. Between that and the internship, I was working 7 days a week and it was really starting to get to me. As much as I need money, having a day to rest will be good for my sanity.

On Monday, Mike and I went out to dinner with his friend Deniz who was visiting from Las Vegas. She’s getting married in June and I was invited to her bachelorette party this May in New Orleans! I’m super excited 🙂 We had dinner at a tapas place called Cata in Soho/LES area. A little pricey, but seriously delicious. The thing I love about getting tapas with a group of people is that you get to have a little bit of everything and you feel full without being over stuffed.

Other than that, it’s been a pretty regular Wednesday. I’ve been trying to send out a few resumes and would really really love to get a job in the near future, but so far I haven’t heard back from anyone. Just have to keep sending them out.

I hope everyone else is doing well! I just ate a yummy lunch of roasted veggies over spinach and kale with avocado. Going to try and have a large fruit and veggie smoothie for dinner at least 3 nights a week in the next week and see how that goes. I also have to get myself a new pair of sneakers and I think I’m going to get my feet fitted at a specialty store that was suggested to me. I’ll post about how that goes! Have a lovely week 🙂

Merry Monday Morning!

Hello Everyone 🙂

I hope you all had a lovely weekend. Just finished one of my favorite breakfasts: peanut butter and banana on whole wheat toast. Today is day 5 of Insanity! I should be embarking on crazy amounts of cardio in about an hour. Yesterday was cardio recovery, which I welcomed. Still made me sweat. It consisted of a lot of yoga poses and holding positions such as staying in a squat which made me curse at the screen. I’m sure I’m not the only person to yell out obscene words to Shaun T haha. But I’m feeling really great about it! I can’t wait to see the progress I make when the workouts become easier to go through.

I’m pretty proud of myself for making this commitment and sticking to it. In the past, I’ve fluctuated in my weight and in my dedication to being healthy, especially when I was active in my eating disorder. I feel like in the last few weeks I’ve been very patient and understanding of myself and this journey I’m on which is making all of the difference in the world. It’s so easy to get frustrated, especially at the start of things because your body isn’t yet looking the way you want it to and it isn’t yet able to do all of the physical activities you want it to. I remember times when I would be at the gym and would catch a glimpse of myself in the mirror or be unable to finish a set and I would head to a bathroom stall and cry my eyes out. But accepting that this is who I am and where I’m starting and not hating myself for it makes the journey a much more pleasant one.

I never would have thought that I would get to a place in life where I loved working out, cooking healthy meals, and where I didn’t spend most of my day hating myself and my body. My diet and exercise were always an unhealthy obsession that I didn’t think I could escape. I was consumed by it, which resulted in years of severe depression and anxiety. I got to the point where it was either giving up on life or getting help. I really hoped that there was a possibility I could live a life other than the one I was living which was filled with self hate and despair. It didn’t seem likely to me. I felt that I was damaged beyond repair and would remain that way eternally, until I gave up. It’s crazy to think about how far away that all seems. If anyone reading this is struggling with the type of feelings and way of living that I have described, I just want to say that there truly is hope. You don’t have to live in the dark. You just need to ask for help and be willing to accept it. A healthy and happy life is waiting for you if you want it.

Even though I have a long way to go in regards to my goals, I already feel much more energized throughout the day, a lightness about me, and a general happiness. The last part is the most important.

Cheers to a good week ahead of us all!

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