The end of one chapter and the beginning of another

Hello my health and fitness comrades!

April was one heck of a busy/stressful month that flew by in the blink of an eye! I seriously can not believe that today is the last day of the health and fitness contest I’ve been participating in! I went in for my final consultation yesterday. I’ve lost 30lbs, 3 pants sizes, many inches (not sure yet of the exact number) and have gained a lot of strength and muscle. The results of the competition won’t be in until June, but I’m more than content with my results and look forward to continue living this healthy and happy lifestyle. In celebration of my results and in preparation for my upcoming trips in May to New Orleans for a weekend and to Georgia/Alabama Gulf Shores for a week, I went on a summer shopping spree! It was time to get rid of my oversized apparel and get some new appropriate fitting outfits. Here’s what they look like! (The second picture are all dresses, but they’re folded)ImageImage

As you can see, one of my purchases included bikini bottoms. It will be my first time wearing bikini bottoms in about 10 years. I’d be lying if I said I feel 100% comfortable in a bikini at this point, but I’ve been working really hard and I think it’s time to step out of my comfort zone and challenge myself by wearing one.

I seem to have plateaued at 146lbs. I’ve been this weight for about a month now, but I’m trying not to let it discourage me. All I can do is continue to eat well and exercise regularly. I’ve been absolutely loving the Brooklyn Badass boot camp classes I’ve been taking. I really enjoy working out outdoors with a group of people. It’s been challenging and keeps me motivated. No workout is ever the same.

I just inherited a Vitamix blender! My mother was kind enough to trade her awesome blender for my shitty one because she said I’d get more use out of it. I am completely in love! Since getting it last night, I’ve made 2 smoothies and soup in it. THERE ARE SO MANY POSSIBILITIES! This was the soup from dinner tonight!


Not a great picture, but it was carrot, pepper, zucchini, curry soup w/sauteed kale and I threw a few Trader Joe’s mini chicken cilantro dumplings in there. Delicious and so easy to prepare!

I also got a new job! It’s an entry level position working in Client Services at a post production studio. Essentially it’s being part of an in house waitstaff for the company’s clients with some light reception/office work. Not a dream job, but there is potential to move up within the company and it will pay the bills!

Sorry if this post is a little messy, I’m feeling very scatterbrained at the moment, but I wanted to take time to post updates. I hope everyone else has been doing well! Hopefully once things settle down in the upcoming weeks, I can get to posting regularly! Good night for now and Happy Beginning of May tomorrow!


Progress pictures

Progress pictures!

3/4 of the way to my initial goal weight, 149lbs. I am now fitting comfortably at a size 8 (I started at a size 14 at 176lbs) The jeans I’m wearing in this picture are a size 12 (and too large on me)Photo on 3-29-13 at 7.36 AM #4 Photo on 3-29-13 at 7.36 AM Photo on 3-29-13 at 7.36 AM #2 Photo on 3-29-13 at 7.36 AM #3 Photo on 3-29-13 at 7.38 AM Photo on 3-29-13 at 7.38 AM #3

Insanity: Postponed :(

It’s been a busy week!

Last Thursday, on my first day of my second week of Month 2 of Insanity, I pulled the outer side of my right calf muscle. I decided to take a break from Insanity for 2 days on Friday and Saturday. During those 2 days, I iced my leg, elevated it, and took it easy. I resumed Insanity on Sunday, but I think it might have been a little too soon. My leg was okay on Sunday and Monday, but after last night’s workout, it started hurting again. I’ve decided to take a full week off in order to recuperate,  and hopefully resume Insanity next Thursday. The last thing I want to do is cause some serious damage to my leg. I might try and go to the gym at some point to do some light lifting and activity, as long as I don’t think it will further agitate my leg.

I’ve still been stuck at a consistent 157lbs. I think some of it may be water weight from my period, which usually has me up in weight anywhere from 2-5lbs. So hopefully by the start of next week, the numbers will start going down again. I’m making sure to be extra conscious of my diet. As much as I’m trying to be patient with myself, as of today, there are only 39 days left of the health and fitness contest I’m enrolled in. I would like to make as much progress as I can in that time. I think that if I’m really good for the next 39 days, it’s still possible for me to reach my goal weight of 149lbs by March 31st.

My friends Lisa and Peter came to hang out in Brooklyn on Saturday night. I had so much fun with them. I really miss having an active social life and close friends. On Sunday, Lisa and I went to the tattoo shop that her uncle manages in Park Slope. We decided to get our belly buttons pierced.  Here’s what that looks like!


I figure it will be good motivation to work towards toned abs!

I decided to request a day off from the coffee shop. Between that and the internship, I was working 7 days a week and it was really starting to get to me. As much as I need money, having a day to rest will be good for my sanity.

On Monday, Mike and I went out to dinner with his friend Deniz who was visiting from Las Vegas. She’s getting married in June and I was invited to her bachelorette party this May in New Orleans! I’m super excited 🙂 We had dinner at a tapas place called Cata in Soho/LES area. A little pricey, but seriously delicious. The thing I love about getting tapas with a group of people is that you get to have a little bit of everything and you feel full without being over stuffed.

Other than that, it’s been a pretty regular Wednesday. I’ve been trying to send out a few resumes and would really really love to get a job in the near future, but so far I haven’t heard back from anyone. Just have to keep sending them out.

I hope everyone else is doing well! I just ate a yummy lunch of roasted veggies over spinach and kale with avocado. Going to try and have a large fruit and veggie smoothie for dinner at least 3 nights a week in the next week and see how that goes. I also have to get myself a new pair of sneakers and I think I’m going to get my feet fitted at a specialty store that was suggested to me. I’ll post about how that goes! Have a lovely week 🙂

Happy Valentine’s Day

Happy Valentine’s Day, friends! I bought a dozen doughnuts and brought them to work, but I have not consumed any, nor do I plan to. A nice fresh apple for me instead 🙂

Today will be the start of my second week of Month 2 of Insanity. Only 3 more weeks! I can see the finish line within my reach!

I’ve hit a bit of a plateau with my weight loss it seems. I haven’t been able to get below 157lbs, but I’m trying to not let it get to me. Just continuing to eat well and exercise, and I’m sure it will happen eventually. Plus I know it’s not really supposed to be about the number, but I really would like to reach my goal of 149 by March 31st. I still have time.

I am super excited for this weekend! It’s my first full weekend off in a long time, and I’m packing as much into it as possible. On Friday I’m heading to NJ and meeting up with a friend, and then having dinner with my aunt and cousins. Saturday I’m having lunch with my mom and then heading back to Brooklyn. My two friends are coming over from NJ and spending the night in BK.

I’ve planned my meals ahead of time! I looked up the restaurants that I’m eating at on Friday and Saturday and picked a healthy pasta and salad. Mike and I got ingredients to make guac, some veggie tortilla chips, low fat brie with multi-grain flaxseed crackers, and we’ll be using our juicer to make a fresh juice sangria. We’re going to order pizza from Barboncino.It has some super yummy/organic and relatively healthy pies. Zucchini and eggplant=delicious. We’ll follow dinner and drinks with some bowling. Sunday we’ll probably go out to brunch, and then the rest of the day will be primarily for relaxation 🙂

Extra butter fresh popped popcorn

Last night Mike and I used a groupon I had for Gustorganics. The baked empanada appetizers were good.The tofu fajitas were amazing, but the zucchini “noodles” with pesto was super bland. The service was pretty awful as well. Not bad for a groupon deal, but I probably wouldn’t go there again.

I hope everyone has a Happy Valentine’s Day. I might be making some other yummy snacks this weekend. If I do, I’ll try to take pictures and post some recipes!


Food I’ve been offered for free at my internship today:

Chocolate Cake

Lemon Cake





Boxes of every type of pizza imaginable

What I’ve actually eaten today:

Cheerios with banana, soy, and freeze dried raspberries

1 Granny Smith Apple

1 Orange

1/4 cup of nuts

Veggie Burger

Brussel Sprouts

English Breakfast tea with honey and steamed soy


My boss who is aware of my healthy diet and exercise was cutting a piece of chocolate cake as I was making myself tea, to which he said, “Girl, you inspire me to get my life together.” Yesterday, he was also kind enough to compliment me by saying, “Look at you! You’re disappearing before my eyes!” I was wearing a pencil skirt that is form fitting with a tank top and cardigan. In the past, I’ve only been able to wear that skirt if it was hidden under a baggy sweater. It was nice to be able to wear it in a way that shows off my shape and be complimented in it. This is my motivation to continue to say no to the massive amounts of temptation I’ve been coming across. I don’t believe in completely depriving myself of sweets or junk food. Everyone deserves an indulgence now and then, but I’d like to think that I should save an unhealthy treat for some time when I really really want it. I don’t want to give into every whim for chocolate and grease, otherwise I’ll go back to consuming much more often than I should. Feeling proud and continuing to say, “no thanks!” to the treats coming my way.

Month 2 of Insanity starts NOW! :)

Woke up this morning and did my 3rd Fit Test. I didn’t have enough time to do my first Insanity workout of Month 2 (Max Interval Circuit), but I’ll be doing it tonight after my internship.

I was extremely happy with my results from the Fit Test though! I feel so much stronger than I did after that first attempt, only 36 days ago, and the numbers definitely speak for that. Here’s a list of my numbers from the Fit Test, in sequence. Day 1, Day 15, and Day 36.

SWITCH KICKS: 97, 104, 131

POWER JACKS: 31, 42, 50

POWER KNEES: 58, 67, 84

POWER JUMPS: 24, 27, 36

GLOBE JUMPS: 5, 9, 10

SUICIDE JUMPS: 12, 15, 17

PUSH-UP JACKS: 14, 23, 28


I can’t believe how much more I was able to do in such a short period of time. I can’t wait for month 2 and to keep improving!

I hope everyone has a lovely Thursday 🙂

A-juicing we will go!


Last night Mike and I went to his friend Phil’s apartment for Phil’s 30th birthday. I ended up having 2 glasses of wine and a piece of chocolate cake, but I’ve been eating well all week, so it didn’t kill me. I was actually down to 160 this morning, which means I’m 2lbs away from being half way to my goal weight. I’m still having some problems mentally processing my weight loss. I have moments when I feel “huge” but my weight is consistently going down and most of my clothes feel noticeably looser. It’s very weird to me that I will be in the 150’s soon. Hopefully, when I reach 158 and take my progress pictures I will be able to see some visual differences and it will feel more real.

I made some really good vegetarian stuffed peppers the other night that I will post a recipe for when I have some time! I’m also really excited that Mike and I will be starting at 10 day juice cleanse on Monday. I specifically chose to start on Monday because that way, during the juice fast I will have my last 2 days of the first month of Insanity, followed by my rest day on Wednesday and then the recovery week before starting the second month of Insanity. Definitely did not think it would be wise to attempt a juice fast while starting the super intimidating second month of Insanity, so doing it during the recovery week is perfect. I’m actually pretty scared for the second month of Insanity, but I’m going to continue to push myself and I WILL get through it.

My only concern about juicing is making sure I’m able to get fresh juice. Breakfast and dinner I will be able to use my juicer at home, so that won’t be a problem. I looked on seamless and found a place I can order from while I’m at my internship. I haven’t been able to find a place that can delivery to my job at the coffee shop (where I will be for 6 of the 10 days I’m juicing). I guess I will have to make extra juice in the morning and bring it with me to work in my insulated canteen. I know it’s ideal to drink the juice right after it’s been made in order to get all of the nutrients, but I don’t think I really have any other options. If anyone has experience with juicing and has suggestions/recommendations I’d really appreciate it!

I seriously can’t believe that January is just about done already! Before I know it, it will be March 31st (the last day of the health and fitness contest I’m participating in). Obviously, I plan on continuing my health and fitness journey past that date though. My goal is to get to 149lbs by the end of the contest. That would bring me 3/4 way to my goal weight. It would also bring me to what is considered a healthy weight/BMI for my height and I would be the lightest I’ve weighed in years. Gives me tons of motivation to reach that number by then. Only 11lbs to lose in 65 days in order to reach that goal. Very doable.

Can’t wait to go home, do some Insanity, and then relax. Hope everyone has a good weekend!

Peanut Butter and Jelly Oatmeal

Hello there!

Not much to update on since my last post. Still spending most of my time working/interning. Can’t believe that tomorrow is the last day of my second week of Insanity. It’s flying by! March 6th (Day 63 of Insanity) will be here in no time!

I wanted to share an easy and delicious breakfast that I enjoy. It’s particularly good after a morning workout.

PB& J Oatmeal


All you have to do is cook yourself a half a cup of oatmeal the way you normally would (I made mine with mostly water and a splash of soy milk)

In a saucepan, on low heat, throw in some chopped strawberries and blueberries. Drizzle honey on top. Stir berries until they become sauce-like. Around 5-10 minutes. Put on top of oatmeal. Add a spoon of peanut butter, chopped almonds, cinnamon and/or any toppings of your choosing.

My appetite has been fluctuating lately. Yesterday I was pretty hungry, so I had a larger dinner than I might have liked to. Today, I’ve barely had any appetite at all. I guess it’s a normal part of my body adjusting to its new diet. Just have to be aware and make sure I’m eating the proper amounts.

My brain is shot right now so can’t really think of anything else to write about. Gunna settle down and watch some Breaking Bad! Have a good week everyone!

Merry Monday Morning!

Hello Everyone 🙂

I hope you all had a lovely weekend. Just finished one of my favorite breakfasts: peanut butter and banana on whole wheat toast. Today is day 5 of Insanity! I should be embarking on crazy amounts of cardio in about an hour. Yesterday was cardio recovery, which I welcomed. Still made me sweat. It consisted of a lot of yoga poses and holding positions such as staying in a squat which made me curse at the screen. I’m sure I’m not the only person to yell out obscene words to Shaun T haha. But I’m feeling really great about it! I can’t wait to see the progress I make when the workouts become easier to go through.

I’m pretty proud of myself for making this commitment and sticking to it. In the past, I’ve fluctuated in my weight and in my dedication to being healthy, especially when I was active in my eating disorder. I feel like in the last few weeks I’ve been very patient and understanding of myself and this journey I’m on which is making all of the difference in the world. It’s so easy to get frustrated, especially at the start of things because your body isn’t yet looking the way you want it to and it isn’t yet able to do all of the physical activities you want it to. I remember times when I would be at the gym and would catch a glimpse of myself in the mirror or be unable to finish a set and I would head to a bathroom stall and cry my eyes out. But accepting that this is who I am and where I’m starting and not hating myself for it makes the journey a much more pleasant one.

I never would have thought that I would get to a place in life where I loved working out, cooking healthy meals, and where I didn’t spend most of my day hating myself and my body. My diet and exercise were always an unhealthy obsession that I didn’t think I could escape. I was consumed by it, which resulted in years of severe depression and anxiety. I got to the point where it was either giving up on life or getting help. I really hoped that there was a possibility I could live a life other than the one I was living which was filled with self hate and despair. It didn’t seem likely to me. I felt that I was damaged beyond repair and would remain that way eternally, until I gave up. It’s crazy to think about how far away that all seems. If anyone reading this is struggling with the type of feelings and way of living that I have described, I just want to say that there truly is hope. You don’t have to live in the dark. You just need to ask for help and be willing to accept it. A healthy and happy life is waiting for you if you want it.

Even though I have a long way to go in regards to my goals, I already feel much more energized throughout the day, a lightness about me, and a general happiness. The last part is the most important.

Cheers to a good week ahead of us all!


1/4 Way There!

This morning I weighed in at 1/4 way to my initial goal weight, which means I’ve lost the first 9lbs out of the 36lbs I had to lose from my starting weight. I was hoping to reach 1/4 way by this Monday but was getting a little discouraged because my weight wasn’t changing throughout the week. It had actually gone up a pound for a little while, most likely due to some over indulgences on New Year’s Eve and my birthday (New Year’s Day). But I stuck at it and have been exercising and eating with no cheats and will continue to do so! December was a warm-up month for me to get back into the swing of things in regards to exercise and eating healthy, but now I’m on board 100% which will hopefully result in me kicking ass :p

Today will be day 3 of Insanity, which I will be doing as soon as I finish this post. Last night I was getting pretty tired towards the end of the workout and moved to a sluggish pace, but pushed through as hard as I could and I know I’ll get better the more I do it. I love the post workout sore I get from it. Definitely lets me know that it’s working.

Working all day today and then going out tonight with Mike and some friends to see Django. We watched Inglorious Basterds last night and it was better than I was expecting, so I hope Django is good as well. I just realized that I’ll be working 7 days a week at about 30 hrs a week and interning about 25hrs a week for all of January :/ At least I requested Saturday, January 19th off just to keep my sanity in place.  I hope everyone is doing well! Have a great weekend! 🙂

Count Down

Hello everyone! I hope you all had a lovely holiday. Tonight was our first time back at the gym since our holiday activities. Dragged my feet on the way there, but as always, definitely glad we went. It’s also a good sign that the staff and regulars recognize us now!

Only 5 more days to my birthday! And only 11 days until I start Insanity! EEEE, I’m nervous but also very excited. I still kind of wish I had a little more time to get into slightly better shape before starting it, but it’s now or never! Starting January, I really have to be on my A game so I can kick butt and win this competition.

Today I also found an awesome Groupon to a healthy organic restaurant I had recently discovered online called GustOrganics. It’s in the West Village and I was planning on checking it out some time in the near future anyhow, but the Groupon deal definitely will make my visit much more affordable. Here’s a link to the deal if anyone is interested: GustOrganics Groupon Deal.

I got my hair cut on Sunday just to change things up a little. I now have bangs for the first time since I was 3 (well there was that one time when I had them poorly cut at Super Cuts when I was 16, but I try not to remember that. It was very short lived). I’m still getting used to them, but I think I like them! Although, they definitely don’t look too flattering post workout haha.

Bangs while at work/before going to the gym:

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Bangs after 30 minute work out and 40 mins of cardio at the gym:

After gym

The rest of my week is consumed of mostly work until my birthday, but definitely going to the gym Saturday and Sunday. I also have some new recipes to post in the near future! But for now, shower, food, and Breaking Bad! Have a good night everyone 🙂