Month 2 of Insanity starts NOW! :)

Woke up this morning and did my 3rd Fit Test. I didn’t have enough time to do my first Insanity workout of Month 2 (Max Interval Circuit), but I’ll be doing it tonight after my internship.

I was extremely happy with my results from the Fit Test though! I feel so much stronger than I did after that first attempt, only 36 days ago, and the numbers definitely speak for that. Here’s a list of my numbers from the Fit Test, in sequence. Day 1, Day 15, and Day 36.

SWITCH KICKS: 97, 104, 131

POWER JACKS: 31, 42, 50

POWER KNEES: 58, 67, 84

POWER JUMPS: 24, 27, 36

GLOBE JUMPS: 5, 9, 10

SUICIDE JUMPS: 12, 15, 17

PUSH-UP JACKS: 14, 23, 28


I can’t believe how much more I was able to do in such a short period of time. I can’t wait for month 2 and to keep improving!

I hope everyone has a lovely Thursday 🙂


It’s a new day

I think my mind and body are finally done retaliating for the juice fast. I fed it all the carbs and cheese it thought it needed and now I’m back on track. Woke up this morning feeling good and did Insanity right away. Gunna fill up on a bunch of fruit for breakfast, maybe some cereal, have some yummy leftover veggie chili for lunch, and probably a salad or veggies of some sort for dinner.

Mike knew I was having a bad day, so he came home with some flowers for me last night.

ImageWe had a nice quiet night, watched Breaking Bad and The Simpsons.

Can’t wait for month 2 of Insanity to start on Thursday. At first I was dreading it, but now I’m craving it (maybe I’ll feel differently once it starts haha). I think my body misses having a good workout. As nice as the recovery week has been, and it was definitely needed, it’s strange to be burning less calories in my workout which might have also contributed to the funk I was in.

I got a call from the doctor about blood work I had taken back in December when I went in because I had Bronchitis. She said my vitamin D levels were low and she wants me to take 5,000 mg of vitamin D. I think it’s possible my levels might have even gotten lower since December because I’ve reduced my milk intake to zero and my dairy intake very substantially (only using cheese occasionally). So that’s very good to know and hopefully, taking vitamin D will make me feel better as well.

I’m starting to get a little anxious about my job situation. I really love my internship and know that I want to find an entry level position as either an administrative assistant or office manager of sorts within the entertain business, preferably related to music. Working at the coffee shop 4 days a week is really starting to get to me, for several reasons. I think one of the big reasons is that I work by myself. In other jobs, even though most jobs in food service are pretty lame, at least I had some good friends to pass the hours with. At this job, the only time I work with another person is for 2 hours each on Saturday and Sunday. The other 24ish hours of the week, I work completely alone. Of course I occasionally have a decent conversation with a customer, but it’s not the same thing. I have to have a level of professionalism with customers. Another reason is that I feel like I’m one of the only people who actually does a decent job cleaning and restocking the place. When I leave on Tuesday and return on Saturday, I’ll come back to find that no one in the past 3 days restocked or cleaned certain items. And it’s not like I ever see the person and get to address the issue. Just little things like that are starting to build up and irk me. So much so that I feel it is carrying over into every other aspect of my life. Some nights when I get home I’ll be in a cranky mood. Or when I start my my internship on Wednesday after the 4 straight days of coffee shop work I’ll feel myself lagging or being annoyed. I’m trying my best to be more positive and not hold onto those negative feelings. It just has me thinking how much I’d love to get a real job and leave my coffee shop days behind. I wish I could afford to take some time off more often, for my sanity, but being that my internship is unpaid, I really don’t have many options. Just gotta push through and keep at it for now.

But anyhow! Today will be a good day. Hope everyone is doing well and moving forward! 🙂

I’ve had better days

This weekend had me struggling a little bit. The juice cleanse really triggered a lot of negative emotions in me that I wasn’t anticipating and that are still with me. I spent the past few evenings snacking more than I should have. Other than that, my meals have been really good though. I had been maintaining my weight up until this morning. I’m back up from 157 to 158. I almost had a panic attack when I saw that I went back up. And to be completely honest, last night I was feeling guilty about all the snacking and ended up purging. Not a good feeling. So I’m just trying to take a step back, get refocused and be rational about the situation. 1 lb isn’t the end of the world. I’ve come so far and have been doing so well to let myself unravel at this point. I’m also on the recovery week of Insanity which means I haven’t been burning too many calories in my work out, but that’s about to change once I start month 2 on Thursday. I just need to focus, eat well, drink a lot of water, clear my mind and do what I was doing before the juice cleanse. And I’d really like to shake these negative feelings I’m having about myself, because they’re no fun.

Alright well, that’s all I have to say about that for the moment. Just a short little vent. Hope everyone has a good week.

Progress Pictures: Half Way to Goal Weight

Yesterday was my first day of Insanity’s recovery week doing the Cardio Core and Balance. I actually really enjoyed the workout and think it does exactly what it needs to do: gives your body a bit of a rest and some time to recuperate, but also keeps your muscles engaged and working. This morning I still weighed in at 157lbs after my first day of being back to solid foods. It’s making me hopeful that perhaps I won’t gain any of the weight back that I lost during the juice fast. In any case, at this point that means that I’ve passed my half way mark to my goal weight (half way marking being 158lbs). Here are some visual updates for everyone.

In these photos I’m wearing size 12 jeans. At my starting weight, these jeans barely fit. I was actually a size 14 at my starting weight

(My apologies for the low quality pictures. They were taken using photobooth on my old macbook)

Starting weight: 176lbs November 26th 2013 (The size 12 jeans I’m wearing are super tight. I was actually a size 14)


1/4 way to goal, 9lbs lost: 167lbs January 5th 2013 (The size 12 jeans fit properly)

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1/2 way to goal, 18lbs lost: 158lbs January 29th 2013 (Hard to tell in these pictures but the size 12 jeans don’t fit and are too loose. I now fit into size 10 jeans comfortably)

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The progress I’ve made from the second set of pictures to the third is my progress from completing month 1 of Insanity.

As I’ve mentioned, I’ve also been taking progress pictures of me in underwear, but I’m going to hold off on posting those for a while.

I really do suggest taking pictures along the way to capture your progress. For me, it gives me a clear visualization that I actually am losing weight and making improvements. Because even though the number on the scale is going down and my clothes are much looser, it’s sometimes still hard for me to realize or comprehend that I actually am losing weight. But pictures definitely prove the point.

I’m still slowly introducing myself to new foods post juice cleanse. Yesterday was only fruits, veggies, and nuts. Today I’m allowed to add beans/grains. Yay!

So glad it’s Friday! Have a good weekend everyone!

Post Juicing Review

So I decided to end my juice fast after 3 days. There were things that I liked and disliked about juicing. My main reason for ending the fast sooner than I expected to were mental/emotional reasons.

The first day was pretty good, my only negative symptom was a mild headache.

The second day my headache was gone, but I feel like I probably didn’t consume enough calories. On that day, I did an Insanity workout, was on my feet and doing some lifting and moving at work for 8 hours, and walked about a total of 2.2 miles in my commute to and from work. That being said, I didn’t pack enough juice to last me the duration of the day. By the time I got home, I had a juice for dinner and passed out almost immediately.

When I woke up on the morning of the third day I felt extremely light headed and dizzy. I felt better once I had some juice in me though. Emotionally, juicing was starting to take a toll on me. My weight had dropped 4lbs in 3 days. That light headed and empty feeling I had in the morning was very reminiscent of when I was active in my eating disorder and was restricting/fasting in an unhealthy manner. I felt like my goals going into the juice cleanse were to detox and revitalize, but by day 3, my only reason for wanting to continue would have been a desire to lose a lot of weight in a short period of time. I really didn’t think it would be wise for me given my past to continue down that road.

The things that I did enjoy about the juice cleanse were that some of the juices truly were delicious. I would definitely like to continue to use my juicer, but just not for 3 meals a day. It also made me want to expand my vegetable diet. There are tons of veggies that I haven’t tried but I would like to or that I have tried in the past but would like to revisit.

From this experience, I feel like I’ve also gained some good insight on my diet and exercise up until this point. I’ve been eating a healthy, mostly vegetarian diet and exercising regularly. At no point have I felt like I was restricting myself or that my intake was inadequate (prior to juicing). I’ve been losing about 2lbs a week pretty consistently. I no longer have any desire to take part in a diet that will make me lose a large amount of weight in a short period of time, the way juicing does.

Overall, I’m glad I tried it, but I’m happy to have ended it after 3 days. I feel like I accomplished what I wanted to and have a better understanding of what juicing is about. I know tons of people have had wonderful experiences with juicing, and I’m not discrediting that at all. I just think for me personally, it’s not the right thing for me to part-take in for an extended period of time.

Here are some of my favorite recipes I made during the cleanse:

Blueberry Lemonade

2 Bunches of Kale

1 Green Apple

1 Lemon

1 Cup of Blueberries

6 Strawberries

1 Cucumber

Morning Juice

2 Bunches of Kale

2 Bunches of Spinach

1 Green Apple

2 Carrots

1 Lemon

1 Orange

1 cup of purple grapes

1 Mango

For far, on my first day back to solid food I’ve had half an avocado, an orange, and a few spoons of applesauce. I plan on getting a small veggie plate for lunch from one of my favorite lunch spots, Dig Inn. It’s recommended to only have fruits and veggies on your first day back, which I’m going to do. On the second day you can add grains and beans. Third day you can add dairy and 4th you can add meat.

Today will be my first day of my recovery week of Insanity. Honestly, I feel more motivated than ever to continue on this path and do my best in the second month of Insanity. I took some progress pictures this morning because I’ve passed my half way point. I do expect to gain a few pounds back in the next few days due to eating solid foods, but I don’t think it will be a crazy weight gain. I’m still right on schedule and pretty happy after looking at my before pictures and being able to see my results. Later tonight I’ll post my progress pictures of me in my jeans. I have some progress pictures of me in my under garments, but I want to wait until I’ve lost a little more weight/the end the B Fit contest until I post those ones.

I hope everyone is having a good week!


End of Insanity: Month 1 and Day 2 of Juice Cleanse

Today was my last day of month 1 of Insanity. I still can’t believe I got through the entire month without missing a work out. There were many nights after a full day of work where I was so sure I would give up and just skip a day. Some how or another, almost subconsciously, I would put on my workout clothes, lace up my sneakers, think to myself “I can’t believing I’m fucking doing this” and get on with my workout. I’m pretty scared for month 2 though. I’ve heard it’s a lot harder and I hope I can keep up. I’ve come this far and I definitely don’t want to quit now.

Today was also day 2 of my juice cleanse. This is my first time juicing. Originally, I wanted to do a 10 day cleanse, but after some more research and because I’m in the middle of Insanity, I’ve moved it down to a 6 day cleanse. That way I will have a full 4 days to slowly reintroduce myself back to solid foods before starting month 2 of Insanity. I plan on doing a full 10 day cleanse at the end of March (at which point I’ll be done with Insanity). I’m actually really liking the cleanse so far. I did have a slight headache during the afternoon yesterday, but apparently that’s fairly common. I haven’t had any serious detox symptoms that I’m aware of so far. I know this sort of thing varies from person to person, but my bowel movements haven’t been anything out of the ordinary. I think it may be in part due to the fact that my diet has been pretty healthy in general and mostly vegetarian, so juicing may not be a drastic change for my digestive system. When I weighed myself yesterday morning, I was up slightly at 161. This morning I was down to 159, most likely from losing water weight from juicing. I’ve heard that it is typical to lose a few pounds while juicing and then to gain some of that weight back once you’re back to solid foods. This is because you gain some water weight back and because there is now the weight of solid food in your digestive system. Whatever the case may be, I’m sure juicing won’t hurt my situation.

I’m getting pretty close to my half way point in my weight loss. I’ll probably post a few progress pictures when I get there but save some of the more revealing pictures for when I’ve lost a bit more.

I apologize for the lack of posts/lack of interesting posts. I just seem to be so short on time and so worn out at the end of the day that being able to post anything at all is a struggle. Only 2 and a half more weeks until I get a short break from working 7 day weeks. I’m hoping to invest in a new camera in the near future as well which may help make some of my posts a little more lively.

Mike and I went to a really nice vegan brunch place called Sun in Bloom this past Sunday before I had to go to work. It’s in Park Slope and was extremely delicious. I highly suggest checking it out if you’re in the area.

Have to start heading out to work, but I promise I will post some of our favorite juicing recipes here, hopefully later tonight! Have a good week everyone 🙂

A-juicing we will go!


Last night Mike and I went to his friend Phil’s apartment for Phil’s 30th birthday. I ended up having 2 glasses of wine and a piece of chocolate cake, but I’ve been eating well all week, so it didn’t kill me. I was actually down to 160 this morning, which means I’m 2lbs away from being half way to my goal weight. I’m still having some problems mentally processing my weight loss. I have moments when I feel “huge” but my weight is consistently going down and most of my clothes feel noticeably looser. It’s very weird to me that I will be in the 150’s soon. Hopefully, when I reach 158 and take my progress pictures I will be able to see some visual differences and it will feel more real.

I made some really good vegetarian stuffed peppers the other night that I will post a recipe for when I have some time! I’m also really excited that Mike and I will be starting at 10 day juice cleanse on Monday. I specifically chose to start on Monday because that way, during the juice fast I will have my last 2 days of the first month of Insanity, followed by my rest day on Wednesday and then the recovery week before starting the second month of Insanity. Definitely did not think it would be wise to attempt a juice fast while starting the super intimidating second month of Insanity, so doing it during the recovery week is perfect. I’m actually pretty scared for the second month of Insanity, but I’m going to continue to push myself and I WILL get through it.

My only concern about juicing is making sure I’m able to get fresh juice. Breakfast and dinner I will be able to use my juicer at home, so that won’t be a problem. I looked on seamless and found a place I can order from while I’m at my internship. I haven’t been able to find a place that can delivery to my job at the coffee shop (where I will be for 6 of the 10 days I’m juicing). I guess I will have to make extra juice in the morning and bring it with me to work in my insulated canteen. I know it’s ideal to drink the juice right after it’s been made in order to get all of the nutrients, but I don’t think I really have any other options. If anyone has experience with juicing and has suggestions/recommendations I’d really appreciate it!

I seriously can’t believe that January is just about done already! Before I know it, it will be March 31st (the last day of the health and fitness contest I’m participating in). Obviously, I plan on continuing my health and fitness journey past that date though. My goal is to get to 149lbs by the end of the contest. That would bring me 3/4 way to my goal weight. It would also bring me to what is considered a healthy weight/BMI for my height and I would be the lightest I’ve weighed in years. Gives me tons of motivation to reach that number by then. Only 11lbs to lose in 65 days in order to reach that goal. Very doable.

Can’t wait to go home, do some Insanity, and then relax. Hope everyone has a good weekend!

8 weeks

Hello Everyone

Gosh, I’ve been super busy lately and honestly, it’s starting to overwhelm me a bit.  Saturday I finally had a day off. It made me wish that I could have every Saturday off, just one little day off in the week. But being that my 3 day internship is unpaid, I really can’t afford to take any days off on a weekly basis :/ In any case, Mike and I had a wonderful time. After doing Insanity in the morning, we ate brunch in Brooklyn and then went to the Harry Potter Exhibit at the Discovery Center in Times Square. We spent a good amount of time in Central Park and then walked to 92nd and 2nd to a wine bar that we had a wine tasting and dinner Groupon for. Brunch and dinner on Saturday weren’t the healthiest meals, but they also weren’t SUPER unhealthy, and I felt like we didn’t over eat. We also worked out in the morning and walked pretty much all day, so I didn’t feel too bad about it. What I did feel bad about was my late night snacking over the weekend. Night time tends to be difficult for me when it comes to over indulging in snacks. I definitely could have been worse. At least the things I was snacking on were all relatively healthy and there weren’t any full blown binging episodes. But I also could have been better. I spent most of yesterday beating myself up about not eating well enough over the weekend, but you know what, I’m only human. And upon further reflection, overall, I’ve been doing a really good job. I need to focus on the positive things I’m doing rather than picking on myself for not being perfect all the time.

I wanted to share this AMAZING recipe I found on Detoxinista’s Blog for Almond Butter Fudge. Mike and I did a Trader Joe’s run early last week and I made sure to purchase almond butter and coconut oil specifically for this recipe 🙂 I seriously could not believe that the only ingredients were almond butter, coconut oil and raw honey or stevia (I used a little it of each). A delicious snack that melts in you mouth.

Today is the 8 week mark since I gradually started to eat better and exercise (and I’m finishing up week 3 of Insanity). I’m at the point in my weight loss (about 13lbs) where I’m starting to see some results, but I still feel like I have a long way to go (23lbs to my initial goal weight). It’s strange to imagine what my body will look like 3 months from now. Over the past 6-8 years, my weight has fluctuated due to my eating disorder from about 150-180. Right now, I’m still within that range. I’m familiar with certain changes that occur to my body within the 150-180 weight range, but anything below 150, I can’t really recall.  I wore a shirt yesterday that I haven’t worn in a while. I remember trying to put it on over the summer and then taking it off right away because the sleeves were cutting off circulation to my arms and it just didn’t really fit well anywhere. The fit was actually pretty loose on me when I put it on yesterday. A little hard to comprehend. Even though I’m still in the 160s, I feel like the amount of inches I’ve lost so far is more significant than when I’ve previously been this weight. I made 140 my initial goal weight because I felt it was challenging and because I hope to feel and look in shape at that weight. I haven’t been in the 140s since I was about 15-16. I’m 5’5 with a large frame. My hands are bigger than my boyfriend’s. I’m not a petite person and I never will be. I just want my body to be the best it can be within it’s own limits. Right now, 140 seems a long way away. But I’m determined to get there and I hope that when I do, I’m happy with the results. I’m worried my mind may go back to it’s old ways and that no matter what weight I get to, it won’t ever be good enough. But I guess I’ll jump that hurdle when I get to it.

Not sure how much time I’ll have to update this week, so have a wonderful week everyone!


Peanut Butter and Jelly Oatmeal

Hello there!

Not much to update on since my last post. Still spending most of my time working/interning. Can’t believe that tomorrow is the last day of my second week of Insanity. It’s flying by! March 6th (Day 63 of Insanity) will be here in no time!

I wanted to share an easy and delicious breakfast that I enjoy. It’s particularly good after a morning workout.

PB& J Oatmeal


All you have to do is cook yourself a half a cup of oatmeal the way you normally would (I made mine with mostly water and a splash of soy milk)

In a saucepan, on low heat, throw in some chopped strawberries and blueberries. Drizzle honey on top. Stir berries until they become sauce-like. Around 5-10 minutes. Put on top of oatmeal. Add a spoon of peanut butter, chopped almonds, cinnamon and/or any toppings of your choosing.

My appetite has been fluctuating lately. Yesterday I was pretty hungry, so I had a larger dinner than I might have liked to. Today, I’ve barely had any appetite at all. I guess it’s a normal part of my body adjusting to its new diet. Just have to be aware and make sure I’m eating the proper amounts.

My brain is shot right now so can’t really think of anything else to write about. Gunna settle down and watch some Breaking Bad! Have a good week everyone!

Busy Bee

Hello my friends!
Oh what a busy week it has been! Wednesday was the first day of my internship at Warner Bros. Records and I’m loving it so far. It’s definitely keeping me busy. Wednesday was also my rest day from Insanity, which happened just when I needed it to. I was at my internship all day and then afterward, Mike and I went to see my friend Peter in a Puppet Shakespeare performance of Romeo and Juliet! It was a really great show. It consisted of a vibrant and extremely funny cast of actors and actors with puppets. I’m so glad we got to not only support my friend, but enjoy ourselves for a few hours at a wonderful performance. I highly recommend it to anyone in the NYC area 🙂
Yesterday it was back to business! After work/internship Mike and I did Insanity: Cardio Power and Resistance. It was the first day of my second week of Insanity and already I’m feeling results. Every time I repeat an exercise video, I can feel myself getting a little bit better. It’s a gradual process, but I’m definitely pushing myself and I feel wonderful afterwards. I’ve been eating well but plan on having an unhealthy treat as dessert tonight.
This morning I had to pick up 3 dozen doughnuts for an company related event. The doughnuts were ordered from a lovely little place called Doughnut Plant. I had the pleasure of trying an amazing cake doughnut from this shop several weeks ago. When I was working at the LES coffee shop and closing up, I realized that the person working before me had left a bag with an untouched doughnut in it. I contacted her and she said I could take home and have it if I wanted because she was not going to be able to come back for it. I did take it home and it was so good that I inisted everyone in the apartment try a bite of it. So when I heard that I was picking up doughnuts from this location, I knew I had to purchase some for myself and the other members of the apartment. I got one hazelnut, one tresh leces, and one chocolate, all of them cake doughnuts. It will be a nice dessert after our Insanity workout tonight. Plus, picking up the 3 dozen boxes from LES and transporting them through the Subway to Times Square was a bit of a workout in itself! Everything in moderation!
I hope everyone else has had a nice week! I’ll be back to working the coffee shop this weekend, so my schedule doesn’t really slow down, but I’m feeling good. I’ll try to get some new recipes up here when I have a chance, I’ve just been too busy to even try to make anything new. Next Saturday will be my first day off in a while and my only break from the upcoming month. Mike and I are planning to go to The Harry Potter Exhibit that he bought us tickets for as a Christmas present followed by a Groupon he got for a wine and cheese tasting with dinner.
Oh, and has anyone else ever tried food from sNice? I had a smoked tempeh wrap with avocado, mixed greens, tomatoes, cilanto and chipotle dressing from them earlier in the week and it was insanely good. Tons of great vegetarian options.
Have a good weekend everyone! And keep up the good work 🙂